This past Sunday Pastor John (I keep telling him he has to stop being so direct in his preaching of God’s word as I can’t take so much conviction! For those not faint at heart if you live in WPB, Sunday’s at 9, 10:30, 12:12 and 7 pm, you are welcome to join us.) He was teaching about praying big Audacious prayers. It was the last message in the series of Chasing Giants. Using Joshua as an example, he reminded us that Joshua was obedient in doing crazy things like telling the priests to step into the mile wide Jordan in flood stage and have the rest of the Israelites follow as they stood in the middle and marching around Jericho for 7 days that seemed a little strange. He did all this without blinking because he knew his God was AUDACIOUS doing things that he could never have believed or imagined..
Many of us have read Ken Blanchard’s books and one talks about BHAG. So as I was listening I wrote down “what are my big, hairy, audacious prayers (vs goals)” that I need believe that God will do and/or answer?
My Big Hairy Audacious Prayers
Below is what I put down although I was feeling like a loser because I was still not trusting God to be BIG ENOUGH:
1. Provide $6300 to cover the 9 scholarships even though the bags will only bring in $2400.
2. Provide $1000 of seed money to give the school so they could make bags in advance to have inventory so they could sell locally to visitors.
Cyrus called after church to confirm the Western Union Money Transfer for the bags. He asked me to pray about a new need that had been brought to his attention when he arrived in Rwanda. This is where it gets pretty audacious - I am way out of my league.
The Really Big, Bold, Audacious Prayer
Due to lack of feminine hygiene products, girls are missing too many days of school each month and are getting kicked out. Precious girls desiring to learn that are being denied their education because of their monthly flow because there is no good alternative. For the women reading I know we can all identify; imagine trying to figure out another solution that is practical, while wearing a school issued uniform that will keep them from being teased by the boys… next to impossible! These young women need products so they can stay in school - provide a way God!
Cyrus asked me to pray about this so I have said, “God you see my first two requests but this one is so AUDACIOUS. This one is bigger than Rwanda it is all of Africa! I am saying God, you figure it out. I am ready and willing to do what you tell me to do. First thing God said was “get your Audacious prayers in the blog so others can pray with you and I can start answering these prayers through you and others.”
Believe God will Give Wisdom
I am memorizing James with my Bible Study Girls as we took the Beth Moore Challenge in her “James –Mercy Triumphs” Study. Last night I was working James 1:1-8. I was hit hard as I worked “but when you ask for wisdom you must believe and not doubt….. (The one who doubts) should not expect to receive any good thing from the Lord. Such a person is double- minded and unstable in all they do.”
When I am praying audacious prayers I am also asking for wisdom and direction. Coming boldly before him I must BELIEVE He will give wisdom. He will provide a way if it is His will. The thought of being seen as double-minded and unstable puts me over the edge, not two words I want associated with my name.
Confident in God’s economy none of these prayers are audacious to him but I come before him saying “I BELIEVE He will give wisdom generously to me”. “DO IT LORD”!
Stay tuned and join me in praying AUDACIOUS prayers!
Monday, January 30, 2012
Lesson 10 from Rwanda – Giving without Sacrifice is Meaningless
The Sunday Pastor John was so kind to let me display my bags for donations, he spoke about sacrificial giving (week 2 Advent Conspiracy). The message was something like, if it doesn't hurt or cost you much, it isn't a sacrifice.I felt God saying, "all the money you receive for the bags is to go to the scholarship, you are not to take out what the bags cost you. What kind of sacrifice are you making in this endeavor if you recover your cost?" We are called to give sacrificially and God was making it clear I had some sacrifices that needed to be made.
Right before Christmas, I took my car in for service. My emergency fund for the year had almost been depleted and the decision to not to replenish the $1000 for the bags kept it next to nothing. Sure enough this was the service appointment that all 4 of my tires needed to be replaced along with 2 of my timing belts. Wow. As I paid that bill, the emergency fund and then some… gone. I had a few moments wishing I could take back my decision about not replenishing my fund for the cost of the bags. God continued to message He was big enough and would work it all out. God reminded me that those in Rwanda don't have an "emergency fund" so what was my issue.
Later that same day, I was given an unexpected check that allowed me to not only deal with the “and then some” from my car service, but it allowed me to fully replenish my emergency fund. Once again God showed His provision and His commitment to the Isaiah 58 project. Oh how I would have grieved if I had received that gift and had chosen prior to replenish my fund vs sacrifice the initial $1000 cost for the bags.
The story gets even better if you can believe it! Cyrus (World Help Director Africa) told me each scholarship was $700. I checked the “Rwanda Isaiah 58 fund” I had set up and I only had $2400 vs. the $2800 needed. I told him I would send the $2800 and that $400 would come from somewhere. I asked him to purchase another 100 bags for me on his upcoming trip end of January. I was getting ready to transfer money out of the emergency fund to cover the bags when I opened my mail to see an insurance credit for some dental work in the figure of $1491 – the amount of money I needed to transfer for the bags and cover the $400 needed for the scholarships.
God’s provision continues to amaze me. Even after years of seeing his faithfulness to me I am still in awe. My lesson is not a new one, and I don’t share this story for any other reason than to encourage you to trust that your Jehovah Jireh – your provider will provide. In God’s economy it may not always be financial, but the one thing I know for sure, when we are obedient, we receive blessings that ultimately allow others to be blessed in the name of Jesus.
Isaiah 58 Scholarship Fund
Pastor Nathan identified 13 women in his congregation he supports for the scholarship fund. He and his assistant took the time to interview each woman who was interested in the scholarship. I am excited that 4 women are now starting vocational school. Cyrus will be sending pictures so stay tuned for future posts. The sad note - there are 9 women still needing scholarships. I have been wrestling with this knowing the 100 bags that Cyrus will bring back mid February will take care of 4 more scholarships but that will still leave 5 women. Not liking this at all; my heart is breaking. God is breaking it because He has made it clear I have a lot to learn in trusting Him to provide beyond my wildest imagination.
More about this in the next post.
Right before Christmas, I took my car in for service. My emergency fund for the year had almost been depleted and the decision to not to replenish the $1000 for the bags kept it next to nothing. Sure enough this was the service appointment that all 4 of my tires needed to be replaced along with 2 of my timing belts. Wow. As I paid that bill, the emergency fund and then some… gone. I had a few moments wishing I could take back my decision about not replenishing my fund for the cost of the bags. God continued to message He was big enough and would work it all out. God reminded me that those in Rwanda don't have an "emergency fund" so what was my issue.
Later that same day, I was given an unexpected check that allowed me to not only deal with the “and then some” from my car service, but it allowed me to fully replenish my emergency fund. Once again God showed His provision and His commitment to the Isaiah 58 project. Oh how I would have grieved if I had received that gift and had chosen prior to replenish my fund vs sacrifice the initial $1000 cost for the bags.
The story gets even better if you can believe it! Cyrus (World Help Director Africa) told me each scholarship was $700. I checked the “Rwanda Isaiah 58 fund” I had set up and I only had $2400 vs. the $2800 needed. I told him I would send the $2800 and that $400 would come from somewhere. I asked him to purchase another 100 bags for me on his upcoming trip end of January. I was getting ready to transfer money out of the emergency fund to cover the bags when I opened my mail to see an insurance credit for some dental work in the figure of $1491 – the amount of money I needed to transfer for the bags and cover the $400 needed for the scholarships.
God’s provision continues to amaze me. Even after years of seeing his faithfulness to me I am still in awe. My lesson is not a new one, and I don’t share this story for any other reason than to encourage you to trust that your Jehovah Jireh – your provider will provide. In God’s economy it may not always be financial, but the one thing I know for sure, when we are obedient, we receive blessings that ultimately allow others to be blessed in the name of Jesus.
Isaiah 58 Scholarship Fund
Pastor Nathan identified 13 women in his congregation he supports for the scholarship fund. He and his assistant took the time to interview each woman who was interested in the scholarship. I am excited that 4 women are now starting vocational school. Cyrus will be sending pictures so stay tuned for future posts. The sad note - there are 9 women still needing scholarships. I have been wrestling with this knowing the 100 bags that Cyrus will bring back mid February will take care of 4 more scholarships but that will still leave 5 women. Not liking this at all; my heart is breaking. God is breaking it because He has made it clear I have a lot to learn in trusting Him to provide beyond my wildest imagination.
More about this in the next post.
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Reflections and Lessons from Grandma
Today, after 93 ½ years of living and 76 1/2 years of marriage, Jesus decided today was Grace Meeder Beaumont's last day on earth. Although tears flow as I write this, inside my heart is so happy that she is finally with Jesus, a place she has longed to be for a while now. What better gift could a granddaughter have to know her grandma is with Jesus?
God blessed my mom with quick thinking on New Years Day that saved my grandma’s life when she performed the Heimlich on her when a piece of chicken got stuck in her throat. My mom thought she had failed and that my grandma had already gone to see Jesus when an EMT came out from the kitchen of Wendy’s and gave her additional instructions that caused the piece to come out just as the paramedics arrived. My mom remembers saying “Oh God” when she thought after 5 attempts that grandma was gone and that was the moment the EMT arrived. No chance occurrence in God’s economy. (Also thankful for a quick thinking dad getting 911 and moving my grandpa so my mom could get to my grandma). God prolonged her life for an additional week, for reasons we may or may not ever know. I am sure there will be someone in heaven because of the testimony that occurred this last week of her life and what a joy that will be.
The picture in this post is from November. My grandparents ate at Wendy’s every day and the staff loves them so much they have made a reserved sign for their special table.
I consider myself so blessed to have forty some years of memories of my grandma, to have felt her love, prayer and encouragement for all those years. I was blessed to have just spent Christmas with both my grandparents and parents watching grandma my last night enjoy “dinner” of the cut out Christmas cookies I made along with ice cream. I am confident they truly are her favorite cookie, but sometimes it is hard to tell as Grandma always loved everything I made because she loved me! I am thankful for such a good last memory of our dinner in which she insisted we get out holiday napkins and place mats so we ate in style.
About 7 years ago I came across a journal in the bookstore titled A Mother’s Legacy. I bought one for my grandma, mom and sister to fill out. We are always so busy doing life we never have time to document our stories for future generations. I was reading her journal again tonight and I thought I would pull from it to share some “lessons” in addition to other words of wisdom she gave over the years. One of the things she noted in the journal was her wish that she would die before grandpa, as she couldn’t imagine living without him; God chose to honor her request.
I would encourage you to a journal together if you are a parent, grandparent or give one to your parents/grandparents so you have this treasure of information. You can find the journal on all the major book sites and it is around $10.
Lessons Learned
1. Thank you notes are a must. – Grandma lost her mother at age 13 and the aunts who were in charge of teaching her etiquette instilled the art of thank you notes. Even this past Christmas, my grandma had the list of all the gift givers and gifts and had her thank you note out the week of Christmas.
2. When you leave the house dress for success - even at the age of 93, grandma ensured when she left the house she had her make up on, her hair looking good and her outfit coordinated. Even on Election Day, she said she needed to look good to go vote. She would always remind me wearing sweats outside of the house was not the way to make a good impression.
3.A slip is a must when wearing a dress/skirt - modesty is always in style and there was never a day, even with her severe osteoporosis that she would think of going out without her slip. It might have required adjustments based on how she hunched, but the slip was non negotiable.
4. Good things are worth the wait. Growing up we lived about 3-½ hrs from my grandparents. I always hated to leave and the tears would flow so grandma started making what she called “Thruway boxes”. In New York, the main road is the Thruway. We had at least 30 minutes to the Thruway from grandma’s house so we were given our shoeboxes full of goodies and treasures but couldn’t open them until we got on the Thruway. The box was always worth the wait.
5. When you can’t sleep – pray. Grandma was a prayer warrior. One that I took great comfort in as when she couldn’t sleep at night she would get up and pray for her family, her version of counting her sheep.
6. Always remember the truth – Jesus loves you! In the journal she recalled one night she came home from school and her parents and sisters hadn’t returned. It was getting dark and she started singing “Jesus loves me” she continued singing until they came home. She noted in the journal “at the age of 86 he is still with me today”.
7. Be willing to work hard for what you want. Grandpa proposed to grandma when she was 16 and he was 19. Her father said she must finish high school before she could marry. So in her senior year she added a class before school and one after school so she could graduate a year early and get married. She was married a month after she graduated at 17 years of age.
8. Saving is a way of life. My grandfather always said he made half the money and my grandma saved the other half!
9. Always set a nice table. Regardless of who is eating and what type of meal, make your guests feel special.
10. Together we achieve more. One vacation I came across an embroidery sampler that wasn’t finished. I asked if I could finish what she started as she was no longer embroidering. Our masterpiece is now displayed in their living room. I love to visit and see our handiwork.
Guiding Light
The journal asks what scriptures/books you turn to for inspiration or guidance. Grandma’s inspiration:
Matthew 5:6: Blessed are those who hunger and thirst for righteousness, for they will be filled.
Matthew 6:33-34: But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow has enough worry of its own.
Matthew 7:7: Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you.
Matthew 7:13-14: Enter through the narrow gate. For wide is the gate and broad is the road that leads to destruction, and many enter through it. But small is the gate and narrow the road that leads to life, and only a few find it.
Celebrating her life
Today I took my favorite bike route along the ocean to take time to reflect my memories of grandma and celebrate her life. I always default to Steven Curtis Chapman when I am in need of a boost and one of the songs that played on my iPod was “Last Day on Earth. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iGCF9nJZt5Mt it was a reminder to me that I have accountability for each day that God gives me, what will I do with them? What have I still to do? What do I need to edit out to make room for what I am still to do? Those are questions I am wrestling now as I know Grandma would want me too and she will continue to cheer me on in heaven.
I know for sure when grandma saw Jesus today he said “Well done.”
Tuesday, January 3, 2012
Lesson 8 -It's Not About Us
This post is the toughest to write. I have been wrestling with this since my return. I thought I was crazy and my concerns misplaced, but as I was catching up with Pastor John about my trip, I shared these thoughts and he told me I wasn’t alone. In fact the Outreach and Missions leadership at Christ Fellowship was reevaluating our approach to missions based on some of these same concerns.
This is tough to write because it sheds light on opportunities on my trip as well as on past trips I have gone on. It is my personal challenge to all who have and will go on mission trips to think differently. The Bishop of Rwanda said it best when he spoke about Rwanda’s approach to the judicial system as it related to trying those who killed during the genocide “we hold ourselves to western standards but western standards aren’t always needed.”
Most Americans including myself possess an arrogance when going on mission trips that although we are going to serve, we are “one hit wonders” going to save and make the lives better of all those we come in contact. They are “blessed to have us” and all the treasures we bring. When traveling you can usually spot Americans because we are loud, obnoxious and demanding. We don’t take the approach of observing the locals and do what they do. We don’t settle into the landscape of the country we are in.
During the trip and post trip I continued to be disturbed at some of our actions as it related to giving out gifts to the children. In America we wouldn’t go out on a street and start handing out candy and gifts without some type of announcement or partnership with a group. For goodness sakes, on Halloween we won’t even let our kids eat candy until an adult has scanned it all and thrown away anything questionable. Interesting that we think it is okay to go into another country, unable to speak their language and directly start handing gifts to children without partnering with parents/adults to get permission or introduce ourselves first.
We all love to treat kids to candy as it is a delight for them, but again at home we limit the sugar intake of our kids as we want their teeth to remain healthy, yet here we are in a 3rd world country where dentists are few, and we are lavishing the candy. Wondering wouldn’t it be a better option to buy healthy snacks bought in their country that would provide nutrition while stimulating their economy through increasing sales at local stores.
Empowering Locals
Why wouldn’t we want to meet with the leader of the town, church or the mission we are working with and tell them what we have brought and ask them if they would like any of the items and if so how they would want to manage them? Why wouldn’t we let them in their time, in their way distribute the items. Let them be in charge – it is their country, their culture. We are there to cheer them on, not to be the center stage. Better yet, why wouldn’t we bring money and buy the things locally the leaders are asking for to again stimulate the economy and support local merchants vs. haul things from the US.
If we really want to be planful, we would ask the group we are partnering with what the greatest need is and raise money so we could provide and meet the need locally. Pastor John and I were talking about the shoe drive we did for Haiti, I remember the women who had gone on the first trip said “get flip flops not shoes as all the girls want flip flops.” While that made sense, most of us still bought shoes, as we wanted them to have something nice. Well a year later, Pastor John has confirmed most of the shoes are still in storage at the orphanage as the kids want flip flop as they are practical and are easier to clean the mud off.
For those planning future trips, fast forward this concept - raise money for shoes if that is a need, take it to the group you are working with and go to the local store and buy locally what the children need. What a win for the local merchants and the ministry gets what they need. That is truly helping. Now in some cases they don’t have the items needed but we should first ask what the need is and can it be purchased locally. That is demonstrating the love of Christ in action.
Reflecting on candy wrappers, bloody noses, crying children because someone bigger took their stuff and broken crayons littered, I wonder did we leave the place better than we found it? I say this not just for this trip but for the many I have been on. We need to do a check of our motives to ensure that our actions are supporting the local leadership. We must decrease and they must increase.
Leaving Things Better than We Found Them
This past Sunday Pastor Tom had a great message on the right priorities for 2012. Encourage you to take a moment and watch. The concepts aren’t new but they are powerful reminders of how we are to live. www.gochristfellowship.com Click on latest message "Living a Life that Excels" on the right hand side of the home page.
This message is a call to action for all those who are preparing to go on mission trips. This is not meant to be a downer about this past trip but it is an opportunity for all who have been on trips to reflect on these thoughts. I believe this is one of the lessons God wanted me to learn and to share. We must shift our focus on why we go on mission trips. We need to ask ourselves – why are we going, what are we able to do to support the locals that the locals could not do without us. We need to ensure our actions support the local economy and we are enhancing their lives. It is a tough pill to swallow but maybe us raising money and sending it versus going on the trip is really what they need. I know I want to go back to Rwanda but I must balance the desire to go with what will my trip do to benefit the local population, what skill can I bring to teach or learn to take back to the US to make things better. If I am going just to go, my money would be better spent sending it to the mission organization.
Challenge
for those going on future trips - take time to learn about the local culture, learn key words and take the time to reflect and discuss how the mission team will show up differently in the country. When you leave, not only are you forever changed but the locals are forever changed. We have a choice to be a “one hit wonder” or “leave it better than we found it.”
This is tough to write because it sheds light on opportunities on my trip as well as on past trips I have gone on. It is my personal challenge to all who have and will go on mission trips to think differently. The Bishop of Rwanda said it best when he spoke about Rwanda’s approach to the judicial system as it related to trying those who killed during the genocide “we hold ourselves to western standards but western standards aren’t always needed.”
Most Americans including myself possess an arrogance when going on mission trips that although we are going to serve, we are “one hit wonders” going to save and make the lives better of all those we come in contact. They are “blessed to have us” and all the treasures we bring. When traveling you can usually spot Americans because we are loud, obnoxious and demanding. We don’t take the approach of observing the locals and do what they do. We don’t settle into the landscape of the country we are in.
During the trip and post trip I continued to be disturbed at some of our actions as it related to giving out gifts to the children. In America we wouldn’t go out on a street and start handing out candy and gifts without some type of announcement or partnership with a group. For goodness sakes, on Halloween we won’t even let our kids eat candy until an adult has scanned it all and thrown away anything questionable. Interesting that we think it is okay to go into another country, unable to speak their language and directly start handing gifts to children without partnering with parents/adults to get permission or introduce ourselves first.
We all love to treat kids to candy as it is a delight for them, but again at home we limit the sugar intake of our kids as we want their teeth to remain healthy, yet here we are in a 3rd world country where dentists are few, and we are lavishing the candy. Wondering wouldn’t it be a better option to buy healthy snacks bought in their country that would provide nutrition while stimulating their economy through increasing sales at local stores.
Empowering Locals
Why wouldn’t we want to meet with the leader of the town, church or the mission we are working with and tell them what we have brought and ask them if they would like any of the items and if so how they would want to manage them? Why wouldn’t we let them in their time, in their way distribute the items. Let them be in charge – it is their country, their culture. We are there to cheer them on, not to be the center stage. Better yet, why wouldn’t we bring money and buy the things locally the leaders are asking for to again stimulate the economy and support local merchants vs. haul things from the US.
If we really want to be planful, we would ask the group we are partnering with what the greatest need is and raise money so we could provide and meet the need locally. Pastor John and I were talking about the shoe drive we did for Haiti, I remember the women who had gone on the first trip said “get flip flops not shoes as all the girls want flip flops.” While that made sense, most of us still bought shoes, as we wanted them to have something nice. Well a year later, Pastor John has confirmed most of the shoes are still in storage at the orphanage as the kids want flip flop as they are practical and are easier to clean the mud off.
For those planning future trips, fast forward this concept - raise money for shoes if that is a need, take it to the group you are working with and go to the local store and buy locally what the children need. What a win for the local merchants and the ministry gets what they need. That is truly helping. Now in some cases they don’t have the items needed but we should first ask what the need is and can it be purchased locally. That is demonstrating the love of Christ in action.
Reflecting on candy wrappers, bloody noses, crying children because someone bigger took their stuff and broken crayons littered, I wonder did we leave the place better than we found it? I say this not just for this trip but for the many I have been on. We need to do a check of our motives to ensure that our actions are supporting the local leadership. We must decrease and they must increase.
Leaving Things Better than We Found Them
This past Sunday Pastor Tom had a great message on the right priorities for 2012. Encourage you to take a moment and watch. The concepts aren’t new but they are powerful reminders of how we are to live. www.gochristfellowship.com Click on latest message "Living a Life that Excels" on the right hand side of the home page.
This message is a call to action for all those who are preparing to go on mission trips. This is not meant to be a downer about this past trip but it is an opportunity for all who have been on trips to reflect on these thoughts. I believe this is one of the lessons God wanted me to learn and to share. We must shift our focus on why we go on mission trips. We need to ask ourselves – why are we going, what are we able to do to support the locals that the locals could not do without us. We need to ensure our actions support the local economy and we are enhancing their lives. It is a tough pill to swallow but maybe us raising money and sending it versus going on the trip is really what they need. I know I want to go back to Rwanda but I must balance the desire to go with what will my trip do to benefit the local population, what skill can I bring to teach or learn to take back to the US to make things better. If I am going just to go, my money would be better spent sending it to the mission organization.
Challenge
for those going on future trips - take time to learn about the local culture, learn key words and take the time to reflect and discuss how the mission team will show up differently in the country. When you leave, not only are you forever changed but the locals are forever changed. We have a choice to be a “one hit wonder” or “leave it better than we found it.”
Lesson 7 - True Giving Is When You Give a Piece of Your Heart
One of my love languages is gifts. I love to give people things that they will see as special and meaningful as a way to show my love and appreciation. The value of the gift is meaningless; it is the thought behind it and in my mind the joy and/happiness it will bring.
While we were gathering to leave the Kigali Genocide Memorial, one of the women was showing Alfrancine (our guide/interpreter) and I a collection of stackable baskets she had purchased. Alfrancine’s eyes lit up. I asked if that was something she would like. She smiled and said “yes”.
Saturday, while we were at a market, I found the baskets. I found Alfrancine and asked her if she had a color preference and she asked for the colors of Rwanda (blue and green). I presented her with the baskets and she gave me a big hug and smile.
Later that morning, Alfrancine found me and gave me a bag. Inside was a carved gorilla. She shared since we had not seen the gorillas that Rwanda is known for that she wanted me to have one.
I was speechless and started to cry. Inside I was thinking, this woman is not one of means and for her to buy me a gift was a true sacrifice. As I was relating this to Cyrus and how I felt so bad that she got me a gift in response to my gift, he shared that in Africa, when you give a gift, you give not only the gift, but you give a piece of your heart. He shared that she wanted to demonstrate that she was giving me a piece of her heart in return.
Speechless. I began to reflect on how many times do we in America give a gift without thinking about it, without really caring about what we give. Giving not from our heart but out of obligation.
For those who have been to my home, gorillas don’t fit into my décor but you can bet the gorilla is displayed and will continued to be displayed with prominence. It is a constant reminder to me that it is not the gift that counts but condition of the heart when the gift is given.
Giving gifts is something we should do with joy. It may mean we have to shift our paradigm on gift giving. What if we were intentional about what we gave? Regardless of its monetary value, seeing each gift not just something physical but in giving it we gave a piece of ourselves.
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